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Everyday i tell myself that everything is alright.I pretend that im fine so that no one will worry about me,sometimes i even believe it.I try to help other people because i dont know how to help myself.I just want everyone to be happy even if im not happy.I pretend im not hurt and act as if im the happiest person.I just i dont know if i can do it anymore.My depression is coming back.Now im thinking that maybe i never was happy i just got used to acting it that i believed it myself.Im sad.Something really is wrong with me but i dont know what it is.I feel alone all the time.Im scared if tell people my problem they will think im an attention seeker or a drama queen..Im so sick and tired of pretending everythings fine when its not.Eight months of being clean just all went down the drain after 12 cuts.Im so sad.